Thou wast all that to me, love,
For which my soul did pine-
A green isle in the sea, love,
A fountain and a shrine,
All wreathed with fairy fruits and flowers,
And all the flowers were mine.

Ah, dream too bright to last!
Ah, starry Hope! that didst arise
But to be overcast!
A voice from out the Future cries,
"On! on!"- but o'er the Past
(Dim gulf!) my spirit hovering lies
Mute, motionless, aghast!

For, alas! alas! me
The light of Life is o'er!
"No more- no more- no more-"
(Such language holds the solemn sea
To the sands upon the shore)
Shall bloom the thunder-blasted tree
Or the stricken eagle soar!

And all my days are trances,
And all my nightly dreams
Are where thy grey eye glances,
And where thy footstep gleams-
In what ethereal dances,
By what eternal streams.



Have you ever looked at your life, and realized nothing is how you want it? Nothing at all has any happiness or goodness within it? I really am tired of living. No education, crappy job that doesn't pay me and won't let me move up, no money, in debt, no love, just got rejected by a girl I really liked, no friends, no future. This hopeless existence is too much for me to bear. 25 years, all a waste. Strike me dead.

Don't comment that you're sorry or that it'll get better. I really don't want to hear it right now. Ugh.

Yes, this is a new journal. No, I don't have new Craving Control pictures for you.

There is good news. I'm going to take all the credit on this. Okay, so it had nothing to do with me, but damnit, I want some credit! I did originally bring the idea up to Craving Control, and let him mull it over, but I think it was the giant response from you guys and clamoring more for his own page that did it. Yes, that's right, Craving Control is now on DEVIANT ART!



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He has his entire comic as well as the Halloween special. If future updates happen, they'll be on that page. He's made a journal, and he loves comments as much as I do so let's show him some love. And remember guys, he's not really a weight gain artist, so try to keep the begging to a minimum! It's hard, I know, but try! For me? Okay! Wooooosh! Awaaaaaaaa~aaay!

Many of you might remember this comic. I talk to the creator of it every now and again and he drew a special 2 page comic for Halloween. He wanted as many people to see it as possible and posted on Curvage, and I said I could let you guys know about it, which he agreed to. So without further ado:

Part 1: [link]

Part 2: [link]

Now, this might turn into a huge debate as it can be a touchy subject, but I'd rather just elicit response as brief as possible.

What are your religious or spiritual beliefs?

I’m an Atheist.

As a side note, I’ll be taking a request from the first person that responds, and any subsequent requests that I find particularly interesting, so fire away gentlemen…and any ladies. Do any ladies watch me? I think a few. Okay, second question:

Are you of the female persuasion? Haha,

I'm not sure what it is, but I just can't focus on doing anything here on DA. I want to have things drawn, but I can't buckle down and do them! I have a story started and unfinished, the final chapter of Going Down in Size to write, and lots of drawing ideas that just beg to be drawn.

Actually, I think I know what it is. It's hard to write and draw anything like this, when you don't feel it. I'll elaborate a tad. The unfinished story, without going into too much detail, is about a married couple who love each other very much. I'm not in an emotional state, where that's something I feel. I feel unloved and unwanted and it's impossible for me to write about love. I'm not in the mindset, so all that comes out is hateful or fake.

It stems from a crush I have on someone. She's so beautiful, and I know I'm crushing on her. So I'm glossing over bad things, and am not interested in other women. I hate it. It's a bad place to be, and I can't get out of it! There's lots of good things too, but, I dunno. You guys don't care about my shitty non-problems. Haha. Wish I had some fucking confidence though.

Thanks for being fans of me, or even remotely liking my work. I know there are lots better artists out there, but sometimes you guys really do get me through the day.

Anyone want to write me in the comments about a girl they like but can't have? Thanks guys.